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There are no words to fully express how I feel about you, but I’ll give it a damn good go. You make my stomach flip with every smile, and my heart flutter with every look. When you came over today and called me a silly name, I couldn’t stop smiling. On the walk home from piano after school, I couldn’t stop myself from laughing and smiling, I even jumped in the air a few times when no one was looking. I guess what I’m saying is, you’ve affected me more in this way than anyone else has. You’re absolutely perfect. You’re beautiful and stunning and gorgeous in every single way. You’re a nice person as well, which makes you even more perfect. You’re beautiful inside and out. I can’t think of myself being as happy with anyone else, even in the future. Being friends, I’d be fine with. It’d hurt. It hurts like hell now. But it’s better than nothing, and at least I could be in your company. You’re happy with someone else, and I’m happy for you, truly. I really just want to be happy with you. I listen to songs written to express love to other people, and I’m imagining myself sing them to you, or being in scenarios where we’re happy and the music is playing in the background. I think I’m never actually going to get over you. I’ll move on, I probably won’t see you for the rest of my life, but I’ll never forget you. I love you, Josh.

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Tonight is a really difficult night. I don’t know what I’m feeling anymore.

I weighed myself again. 12 stone 3. I feel really fat. I can’t stand it. I look in the mirror every morning and I see myself, and I can’t look myself in the eyes. I hate myself. I really do.

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I don’t think I’ll ever be in a relationship to be honest. Being alone feels natural.

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I don’t understand how people can be in relationships. I want to know what it’s like to like someone and have them like you back.

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You know this is the closest I’ll ever get to a relationship with someone so please excuse me for being too intrusive.

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